A Reflection on the Life I’ve Been Given
What a year. Last year, this time, I nearly died – or at least, was about to.
As I reflect on my recent heart surgery, here at Christmas time a year ago, I am struck by so many thoughts and feelings that I don’t know where to begin.
What stands out most, perhaps, centers on perspective – that life doesn’t seem as lengthy or predictable as I once thought. And if so brief, what have I yet to accomplish, who have I yet to impact and even why has God kept me around?
After near death and experiencing the extreme vulnerability of life, you begin to wonder. Not like pondering or day dreaming. We all do that. I mean gut wrenching, soul shaking stuff – the kind you can’t just let go of, that wakes you up in the middle of the night and stirs your heart in ways you aren’t used to! Keeps you awake!
Wondering and wondering.